Finally!!! After 2 years, finally they are releasing J album!
Woa, I'm so excited XD~

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JECN-212
KinKi Kids/J album[w/ DVD, Limited Edition]  CDA
3333 yen US$36/91.61  Release Date:2009/12/09
Description:New album release from KinKi Kids for the first time in two years. Features previously released single songs "Secret Code," "Yakusoku," "Swan Song" and more for 11 songs total. Limited edition includes bonus DVD featuring music videos for "Secret Code," "Yakusoku," "Swan Song" and TV spot. Includes 28-page booklet. *Unless otherwise indicated, DVDs are region-2 encoded (Japan, Europe, and Middle East), and carry no subtitles.
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JECN-212
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JECN-214
KinKi Kids/J album[Regular Edition]  CDA
2857 yen US$31/91.61  Release Date:2009/12/09
Description:New album release from KinKi Kids for the first time in two years. Features previously released single songs "Secret Code," "Yakusoku," "Swan Song" and more, plus regular edition includes a bonus track "Ai ni Tsuite." Includes 28-page booklet.
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JECN-214


A bit dissapointed here, the bonus DVD includes Secret Code, Yakusoku and Swan Song PVs, that means there won't be KinKi Single Selection III ??

Shit, I was reading a very disturbing manga today.
Or exactly, I have been reading all disturbing manga recently
They're all about love, how you love, be loved, accept and give up, appreciate and hurt the one you love, everything..
After all, I feel love is just a luxury thing, don't try to reach it, or else you will get yourself hurt so badly
In love, you just keep hurting the person you love, and hurting yourself..
For the sake of the one you love, you can hurt him , beat him, abandon him or whatever, even throw yourself to the depth of despair
Love is just hurting each other
If I can choose, I'd rather never love anyone, I'd rather bear the loliness than the pain from loving someone
I'd rather never trust anyone than be betrayed once again
I'm a coward, afraid of being hurt the most in this word that I have never and will never be serious with anyone, and tend to hurt others before get myself hurt.
Life is hard, you hardly can get what you really want, if then, don't want, don't dream from the start, try to learn how to give up on things.
I have been throwing myself into manga in order to run away from this life, I have kept thinking 'If someone shows up from nowhere , hold my hand and take me to another world, I will go immediately without second thought' . I don't care where I go, hell, heaven, other dimension, .etc , just disappearing from this world is enough, just a place to where I can run away.
But everytime I finish reading something, I have to wake myself up 'This is not manga, this is real life'
How frustrated I am..
Love is such a luxury thing that someone like me never can touch and don't have the right to touch..

Ne~ finally it came out


Nice song~
I think most of people hear this song like some of anime OP because of the first /the opening part of this performance
First it's an upbeat ballad song, and the effection of violin(?) arrangemant at the opening part is the common style of anime OP theme nowadays, you can find it in 'ef - A tale of memories' , 'ef - A tale of melodies' , the demo movie of 'eden*' or 'ef - The first tale' or most of Tenmon's works.
And this, OP song of a Boy Love game 'Hanamachi Monogatari', try a bit (close your eyes or minimize the browser if you don't want to see the graphics) and you will see they're very alike, both if this OP and 'Swan song' give out the feeling of old fashion/gothic-ish songs.



Well, I just want to say they use this arrangement style in anime/game theme song a lot now so it esily understand why all you feel it's familiar *laugh*
Anyway, this really is a nice song, it's been quite a long time since the last upbeat ballad of KinKi ( Snow!x3 ? or Harmony ? , oh and I didn't count BNS, I even didn't like that song *laugh*)  and Good job, KinKi! (XD)
I'm looking forward to a PV with style like Snow!x3 or BokuHane, so excited XD

Yes!! I have finished Giulio's route, finally got a good end XD
(the feeling of clearing one route completely without capture guide was so great *laugh*)
He must be my most favourite char naa~  *tee hee*
Though his route was the first route I played in this game, I don't have interest in playing other's routes any more (  ´ ∇`)~
...I should draw him a fanart soon (  ///∇//)


Middle Autumn Festival is near , this Saturday
Another year....

I have started to play visual novel recently , to kill time
the first one was Hanamachi Monogatari and my goodness, it was such boring and loooong ,
after got a bad end (though I was skipping and skipping to get a-n-y end b/c it was really tiring to read all, not even mention to those Engrish translations) , I left it there and well, I don't think I will play it again.
The second one is Lucky Dog 1, I have to say it was amazing~
After 3 days, I have almost cleared Giulio's route , got totally 3 ends, 2 of Giulio and 1 of Gian
(in 2 ends of Giulio,  one was Gian died, the other was Giulio died = =)
Maa~ this game was really good, nice art and action, and characters development was great too,  esp Giulio
He was such a good guy, and cool, the scene when he rescued Gian and protected him from the bomb explosion (then died, how sad~) was awesome..
However, I don't like the protagonist - Gian much, he was kind of short-tempered and his voice was awful, terrible and annoying.
Nee~ I would like to see this game goes to animation, a TV series is the best but at least OVAs is also good, and if they do, please do Giulio's route
*though I know it would never happen, an anime for this**sigh*

My KinKi YOU DVD was despatch today,
I hope it will come by Saturday, I really miss them...

I'm considering opening a community to share KinKi media, b/c my KinKi media collection is quite big (about 400GB and still growing)
Well, since there are some communities out there are working very well on sharing old and latest KinKi stuffs, so I don't have ambition to compete with them.
As the title says, the community will be to take request of any KinKi file which I already have in my media list (request and I will upload the file, it's not a storing community) , there will be more regulations and I will have my own limition since I am not full-free time , but roughly that's my idea.
And as I said above, there are some sharing communities already so I'm not sure this community is neccessary or not, therefore anyone has interest in this, please take a look at the poll (and comments of course are appreciated too)

Poll #1458416 A KinKi media requesting community
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 6

Do you want it?

Today is a gloomy day.
A storm is coming so it's been raining, windy and a bit cold,
like every autumn days.
My life has returned to normal for the last few days,
the truth is, I'm tired already.
The older you become, the more you feel the hatred is so tiresome.
Even if it is your motivation to continue living, it is still a burden,
no more no less.

Thank you sangatsu, selena and kokosg for leaving comments in my last entry, as you said, death is not the only way, and I start to think, my life is not that cheap *laugh*

Btw, KinKi is going to release a new single (here) this October, a bit suprising yet I'm glad to hear they're coming back.
(Hope that's not the 'last song' of them , though)

 

Lately, I have felt so frustrated...
So much that I wanted to and really did hurt myself very badly
Maybe killing myself is not a so bad idea, is it?

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JEBN-79
KinKi Kids/KinKi you DVD[Limited Edition]  DVD
9524 yen US$99/95.75  Release Date:2009/09/30
Description:DVD release from Kinki Kids featuring footage of their "Kinkyu Zenkoku Tour Kinki you Concert" performance. Limited edition includes digest of their new year concert at Kyocera Dome Osaka, comedy video, and making-of footage on disc 4. Moreover, this limited edition includes original towel and poster. Comes housed in three-folded case.
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JEBN-79
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JEBN-83
KinKi Kids/KinKi you DVD[Regular Edition]  DVD
8571 yen US$90/95.75  Release Date:2009/09/30
Description:DVD release from Kinki Kids featuring footage of their "Kinkyu Zenkoku Tour Kinki you Concert" performance. Regular edition includes digest of their concerts in Nigata, Hiroshima, and Kagoshima on disc 4.
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JEBN-83

OMG!! I'm speechless...

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JECR-16
Tsuyoshi Domoto/Rain[Limited Edition]  CDA
952 yen US$10/96.24  Release Date:2009/09/09
Description:New single release from Tsuyoshi Domoto (Kinki Kids). Limited edition includes bonus track "Rain (instrumental)."
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JECR-16
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JECR-17
Tsuyoshi Domoto/Rain[Regular Edition]  CDA
952 yen US$10/96.24  Release Date:2009/09/09
Description:New single release from Tsuyoshi Domoto (Kinki Kids). Regular edition includes bonus track "Funk-SeOssion."
URL - http://cdjapan.jp/d.html?KEY=JECR-17

Wow I'm kinda surprised...I actuallly did not expect to get this sort of news at the moment, I mean right after getting the new release of Koichi and Tsuyo's previous single was not so long since , on the top what I'm looking forward to the most is something of KinKi, not solo again...
well, still surprised...that's a strange feeling...
And in addition, why is 'Doumoto Tsuyoshi' ? Is he using that 'Tsuyo-shi' , isn't he?
I guess exam and hospital have destroyed my brain already therefore I'm not possible to understand or get any clue of that.......

I have to stop dreaming
Life is to learn
how to give up on things you want
and to accept things you don't want

I run away from the time
From the time stream chasing after me
Hopelessly hope someday time will stop moving
Someday time will come back
For me to live those feelings again

I have got sick today
My body feels all hurt and I have a heavy headache
I got my 2 classes off due to my sickness
I have had medicine already but things're still that bad
Man, I feel like my body no longer hears my mind
I can't fall down at the moment
It's not time, not yet..

This world is changing..
I don't realize
My world
Have it changed?

Listening to newest album of Green Day
So far awesome as what I've listened to XD
It's totally worth to wait for 5 years
Go Green Day !!  No.1 Billboard is coming !

Still keep on enjoying.... （″▽″）

Dream is hurt
Love is hurt
Either it comes true or not
It's still hurt
To dream, to love and to wait..

I heard there were informed cases of swine flu H1N1 in Korea, and godness, KinKi have just come back from there >__<...
please, please, please let nothing happens to them..
please keep them in safety, please protect them, please,..
God, I will pray for you everyday, I will stop complaining and be a good person, I will do anything, even exchange my life, just you - please protect them, protect KinKi ..
Please protect them, God >__<

I have no home to come back ♪
No one waving me in front of the house ♪
I have no where to go ♪
No where my existence is meaningful ♪
When I die, no one will cry ♪
When I cry, no one will come ♪
That's to live this life ♪
Be stronger, much stronger ♪
To live this life ♪..
.....
...

Doctor has diagnosed that I had had a big tumor in venter...
To think positively, it's lucky that it's not a malignant tumor...
But, that's still a painful feeling..

When I sat outside the CT room ,waiting my mother for coming back,
I was thinking about lots of thing
may I would die..
if I die, what am I supposed to do? what will I do?
My KinKi collection , I will give them to someone who need them more than me, who will love them more than me
and promises to take care of them for me
My manga collection, I will ask friends and people if they want to take parts of them and keep them well
My HDDs which're full of KinKi media , I will depend on one friend of mine who is KinKi fan too , because if it's other person, that one won't know how worth they are with me
My comp, poor him, he has been with me for all 8 years, may I will ask mother to keep him in my house , finally he can take a rest after how many years being beside me..
I'm not worried much about my mother, that child and father will take care of her , I hope that, I will make father makes a promise to take care of mother well
My classmates, ah..I will tell them later, I don't want to distract them while the important exam is coming
uhm..what else...
My dream,uhm... I will put it in whose hands , to carry it out for me?
my dream, to go to Japan and meet KinKi and say thank you to them for making me realise how meaningfull this life is..
my dream, to live as myself, to become an artist, live freely ad creatively, to come out and see this world, feel the life, to.....

right at the moment, I realise, I don't want to die

I haven't met KinKi yet, I still have lots of thing I want to do
I won't cry, I will become stronger, I have overcome lots of thing, I will overcome this one too
"you are not supposed to cry.."
I want to meet KinKi,
I still have to keep my promise with my friend that someday we will meet up in Japan and go to KinKi concert together
I will become stronger, so I won't die
...


I will have the surgery in this July, after my exam
Things would be ok....

1st test - over.
I'm taking rest at home to prepare for 2 next tests this afternoon
This morning test was so horrible
When I read the content,  it turned to be only the darkness before my eyes
ショック！！∑（○__○；）
That's happened to all my friends also
(laugh)
However I was possible to complete it

*running to my walkman*

I need Tsuyo to ease my mind now
La la~ bigaku...
(why do I hear this like ' Love love~ bigaku...' ?!（￣・￣；） )

Back soon~